In Pursuit

This means when I train my body, I desire to push myself to my perceived physical limits, and hopefully a little beyond. I know and believe that I am capable of being stronger and faster and more resilient than what my brain tells me I can be, and so I intend to break the walls down when I hit them. I am in pursuit of extreme physical capability. For many doors are open to one who can run, jump, swim and climb. I would give myself more opportunities to experience life than less.

This means when I train my mind, I focus as intensely as I can, for as long as possible, and hopefully a little longer still. I want my memory to near flawless and my recall to be near instant. I want to be able to think more clearly, linearly, abstractly, creatively than I ever have before, and recognise patterns and connections between things in ways I have never recognised before. I want to ponder the meaning of life and all the components of it more deeply than what I imagine is possible, and for that I need clarity, calm, focus. I am pursuit of extreme mental capacity. I am innately a deep thinker, and I want for myself to be capable of thinking deeper, and also the ability to turn my thoughts off, or at least be unaffected by them for a time. I seek to have a choice in how I mentally experience the present moments.

This means when I connect with people, I intend to explore that connection as far as I might be allowed to, through curiosity, trust and compassion. I will love purely and genuinely, and will harbour no hate or ill intentions towards others. When my emotions cloud my judgement I will seek understanding rather than revenge. I am in pursuit of the truth of all things, and to feel every emotion a human can feel, and I admit to hoping for more frequent experiences of happier, positive feelings than tragic, more sad ones. Though I know that life neither one nor the other but a mix of both, and so I seek to learn well to accept the present and to endure it in it’s current form.

This means that when I create, I am boundless. I seek to learn more words, expressions and languages. More forms, mediums, styles, experiences and colours. I would expand my ability to channel energy into creating something unique, and to be guided by the energy rather than to guide it with my somewhat limited ability. I would let creation take its natural path and simply be its vessel of realisation. I will learn to be empty of judgement where art is concerned, and full of interpretation instead. I hope to bring something valuable to others in the things that I create. I am in pursuit of beauty.

This means that when I travel, from place to place, from feeling to feeling, from conversation to conversation, from dream to dream, I will travel with a mind and body open to unique and familiar experience alike. With the ability to embrace the conditions I find myself in. I seek to know more of the feelings I cannot name, the ones that guide and nudge me toward what I believe is meant for me. I’m not sure whether I would name them, as people love to do, or whether I would be content to feel them, recognise them, hold them and then let them go. For nothing lasts forever, which is precisely why that which we have is so precious. I am in pursuit of the essence of life, which to me is the ability to be so present, so immersed that time doesn’t tick. It is that feeling that simultaneously unites and frees my mind, body and soul and lets me wander. I am in pursuit of Being.